We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

nur ein (demos)

by rain

/
1.
s.a.d. 02:25
i get sad in the summer it's something bout the way the sunlight hurts my eyes and there's no difference in the days and you feel the same, i know that you feel the same and you feel the same, i know that you feel the same it's okay if you don't wanna talk you don't have to say it we can be on our own, together it's okay if you just wanna lie here you don't have to say it we can be s.a.d together it's not just as easy as saying everything's okay the nights go on and on and it is hard to face the day and you feel the same, i know that you feel the same and you feel the same, i know that you feel the same it's okay if you don't wanna talk you don't have to say it we can be on our own, together it's okay if you just wanna lie here you don't have to say it we can be s.a.d together s.a.d together and i feel the same, i know i feel like i'm living in the space between when one thing ends until the other and i feel the same, i know i feel like i'm yelling at the sun, like, how come you never cheer me up? you know, you're ‘sposed to do that, you're ‘sposed to do that you're ‘sposed to do that, you're ‘sposed to do that it's okay if you don't wanna talk about it [not talking about it] it's okay if you just wanna lie here s.a.d together s.a.d together s.a.d together s.a.d together
2.
shock value 03:53
does it feel good? to be one of the “good ones”? i bet the paycheck’s not bad and you get lots of offers to put yourself down as a writer, like it says on your website where you burn the bridge we have, and then for twenty bucks, you sell the ash when all you got is shock value what are you worth if things aren't getting better at least you can get worse does it feel good? to play the part of their gay best friend to a group of people who would happily see me eaten alive? you give the power, to the lies that would kill us but you own your own house, you own a dog, why would you give a fuck? when all you got is shock value what are you worth if things aren't getting better at least you can get worse if you get to yourself before they do does it hurt less? if you get to yourself before they do does it hurt less?
3.
i hate you for what you've said while you hate me for who i am i can't change my gender like you assholes say i can when you write your articles i wonder if you mean it you have to know we're suffering but caring is inconvenient cause i know people who have died way before their time and i'm only twenty three so i don't think that that is fine so will you give a shit or tell us that we shouldn’t swear like hearing us say rude words is anything like what we have to bear the way some of us get comfortable you call it "mutilation" but i don’t know where i would be if not for simple medication i hate you for who you are yeah, i think it's in your guts that you'd rather have blood on your hands than have us kick up a fuss cause i know people who have died way before their time and i'm only twenty three and i don’t think that it is right so will you give a shit or tell me i should pump the brakes like me yelling for change is worse than anything we have to take i want you to feel guilty i want you to feel blame i want you to wake up tomorrow overcome with shame i want you to get nauseous when somebody says your name for every inch of hurt you cause i want you to feel the same i want you to start crying i want you to hate yourself i'm not saying that you killed someone but you didn't fucking help i want you to break all your limbs so you know how pain felt and in your darkest days i hope you have no-one left cause i know people who have died way before their time and i'm only twenty three so i don't think that that is fine
4.
(i missed out) but it’s okay cause i’ve been catching up (i missed out) things are better than they were things are better (i missed out) but it’s okay, although you’re, losing track (i missed out) i wonder what you picture when you think of me cause it’s so inconvenient you pretend that nothing’s changed you just colour me out, like i’m not a girl, just weird and strained you haven’t made the difference in these two years, you think that i’m the same yeah, like i’m the same (i missed out) but it’s okay cause i’ve been cheering up (i missed out) it took a while, but i got there it took a while (i missed out) but it’s okay, i think you have my back (i missed out) i just wonder if you know your oldest daughter cause it’s so inconvenient you pretend that nothing’s changed you just colour me out, like i’m not a girl, just weird and strained you haven’t made the difference in these two years, you think that i’m the same yeah, like i’m the same i feel invisible you don’t call me what i want am i so hard to deal with? then colour me out yeah, i’ve not been quiet i get told that i’m too loud then why are things the same? just colour me out i’m not sad, i’m just older i’m not sad, now i’m older but you know, you’ve got a new kid? you know, you got a new kid i’m not sad, i’m just older i’m not sad, now i’m older you have to know, you’ve got a new kid you gotta know, you’ve got a new kid i’m not sad, i’m just older i’m not sad, now i’m older but you know, you got a new kid? you know, you’ve got a new kid not sad, i’m just older i’m not sad, now i’m older
5.
no memory 03:26
i got ink in my eyes and i'm staring through the frost in a window and i’m tryna work out what is going on how do i know where i am if i don’t know where i’ve been i been taking some time and i’m looking at the past like a textbook and i’m tryna get past all of the gaps how do i know where i am if i don’t know where i’ve been yeah, i'm staring to feel like i'm missing out i'm staring to feel like it can’t come back around i'm starting to feel like i'm missing out, like i'm missing out cause i got no memory all the pages are blank other than the ones with the pictures but i think they’ll fade away how do i know who i am if i don’t know who i’ve been and i never know when i’m remembering something real or if i’ve made up everything how do i know who i am if i don’t know who i’ve been yeah, i'm staring to feel like i'm missing out i'm staring to feel like it can’t come back around i'm starting to feel like i'm missing out, like i'm missing out cause i got no memory i got no memory
6.
last week it was a hard one (understatement) and i flew back as fast as they let me and i feel bad that’s all that i can do but at least i made it i can live on no-name streets or live in cardboard houses cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you on a mountain or deep under water cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you last month has been a long one (understatement) cause i hate boxes full of stuff cause i know in six weeks they'll be still full on the floor i know in six weeks things will be better i could live on no-name streets or live in cardboard houses cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you on a mountain or deep under water cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you last year has been a weird one (understatement) so much has changed, and for the better but i've a lot to get over and get through but now i get to move in with you i can live on no-name streets or live in cardboard houses cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you on a mountain or deep under water cause what i wanna do is have a home, with you

about

songs written for the nur ein xiv contest

everything by me

credits

released July 1, 2019

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

rain Belfast, UK

contact / help

Contact rain

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like rain, you may also like: